hey

Its the holidays!
i hope everyone's having a blast.

haven't been updating,
i am just not,
motivated.

I think i got stabbed in my heart,
and the knife is still there.

If i get to choose,
ill take the bullet in my brain,
and at least be brain dead,
then ill be emotionless.

Happy Birthday PA! i love u everyday not just on your birthday!

Everyone asks me to talk positive things when Im with my dad, its not so easy having the sick talk with him, it is the tear driving zone for me...

pa is so so negative, i was playing with him by calling him his home name,
NARDI! NARDI!

he said,
NARDI NARDI SUDAH MAU MATI!

-_-

bye.
adios.
i hate my life now.
literally.
other than the good food i have at home.
yeah.