i miss him, a lot

Mushroom is missing.

It’s a horrible feeling, losing someone u love and care about so much.
Especially when u miss him so much, and you look forward to see him everytime,
And then news come to you unexpectedly.

I can still remember very distinctly when my parents came up for Christmas,
I was so happy cause I could meet up with Mushroom, I haven’t seen him for ages.
And my mum told me that Mushroom was missing.It took a few seconds for me to process what she said.

When, how come, why?

She said it happened since last Monday; Mushroom didn’t come home so they looked for him everywhere but they couldn’t find him. They went around the whole neighborhood, my dad even went to the extent to look for him at the Gurkha graveyard right behind the neighbourhood, my neighbour joined in the search too.

My mum didn’t want to tell me earlier as she knew I wouldn’t take it easily.
I broke down and thought of all the consequences Mushroom could face,

Someone might have taken him.

He might have wondered off and couldn’t find his way back which is least likely as he hasn’t failed to come back everyday, we let him play outside on his own.

If someone did take him, they aught to be ashamed of themselves cause Mushroom was wearing a collar, obviously someone owned him.

How can you take something that doesn’t belong to you?

I took care of Mushroom since he was a kitten and I’m really attached to him. He is a really well behaved cat, he is my first pet and I really love him, I watched him grow, from a kitten to an adult cat.

Even after so long, I’m still taken aback by the news and I am still praying that one day he would still come home to me. Everyone is still waiting for him to come back. I just can’t accept the fact that he is gone, I really really miss him. Even while typing this entry its so emotional for me. I feel a pang of sadness in my heart whenever I think of him. I just hope he is okay and he will always be my baby!

christmas, christmas time is here

Things are starting to get really Christmassy.. Not that, snowflakes are falling or what but my spirits has risen, and it means that time of the year has come.
It all started with watching Alvin and the Chipmunks, where they sang a Christmas song that goes like Christmas, Christmas time is near,
Time for joy and time for cheer,
And then something, hula-hoop. (Cuteness overdose)

MMU Care Club came up with A Christmas Thingy, a musical the invisible cloak,
And it was really good!

Then I went Christmas shopping at Dataran Pahlawan,
And the Mall was all geared up for Christmas,
The decorations was so pretty..

Yesterday, I watched the National Treasure, it was okay, I was impressed with Nicholas Cage as he was so smart with his knowledge of history and facts, and so is his mum and dad, and his friend in the movie Riley who was a genius in breaking codes that they managed to sneak in Birmingham Palace. After solving clues and breaking secret codes, they found the Kingdom of Gold, it was all too good to be true.

After the movie, I went to Hiran’s place to watch another movie, A Walk to Remember, an old movie starring Mandy Moore and Shane West. It’s a really really sweet touching movie, that I teared here and there. Shane West played a role, Landen who is really sweet with his bad guy turned good for a girl thingy.

Despite all the decorations, presents and food, Christmas is much much more than that, it's a very special gift for everyone.

So goodbye and have a blessed Christmas everyone!

eighteen

Oh well, I am finally eighteen. Turned eighteen on 8th of December, so happy belated birthday to me!
Only now i have the time to blog about my birthday.

My friends had a surprise party planned for me.
There were many spoilers though, before my party a few people had came up to me and told me that they couldn’t attend tonight and ill go like huh, what’s going on tonight. Then they will realize I didn’t know and come up with some lame thing like oh we are going to mamak tonight, like so obvious right...

The actual plan was supposed to be me, Kimi, Faiz, and Hiran go out to have dinner to celebrate my birthday at this café with a live band.
I was kinda disappointed at first when I asked my close classmates, Nat and Amanda if they wanted to join, they told me they were going for Karaoke instead.

When I got there, the live band started singing happy birthday to me and literally EVERYONE I knew was there, even friends whom I didn’t expect to come was there singing happy birthday to me! It was kind of awkward being the centre of attention as everyone was staring.

Thanks to Kimi for planning the surprise party, and of course Nat, Darren, and Darrel for booking the place, and to everyone for coming. Its just a great feeling to celebrate your birthday with the thought where people actually care about you, and made time to come! I really appreciate that..

Ivan, Justin, Caryn and some other people got me helium balloons. They heard from someone that i liked making a wish and letting them go, so they got me that. They said it wasnt easy looking for helium baloons in the middle of the night. And Catherine even got me a hot pink G-String lingerie..hahhahha

I felt really bad as I couldn’t play a good host to everyone as there were too many people and the live band was really loud.
So a few friends asked me this question,
How does it feel being eighteen and legal?

Seriously, I feel the same. I can’t feel being eighteen just after I turned eighteen.
But I can tell you what being seventeen feels like,
It’s a mixture of feelings for me,
First was having to leave home for university, that was a major step in my life…but it made me more independent. Being seventeen is a transition between life where its time to leave teenage hood and to be prepared for young adulthood! Seventeen feels great, and i hope being eighteen would be a blast too!

Okay, pictures...

My birthday cakes! Really good...

Friends..... who made it happen

Thanks for the presents everyone! i love each and everyone of them! I didnt get to take pictures with everyone, as I didnt have my digital camera with me. :-(

woooohoooo, i am eighteen. Congratulations Sarah for making it this far, way to go!

Cucumbers

I made hot dog sandwiches and chicken soup for dinner today so i have a lot of cucumber leftovers. So i am munching them away...

Going for Economics lessons are amusing.
And there are my latest amusement.
Not the lesson really, but the lecturer.
She is a pain in everyone’s ***!

First day in class, I could tell that my economics lesson would never be the same again.

First was her inferiority complex problem, as in she asked us not to compare her with our previous lecturer.
Then there was the bonus mark thing.
Every time a student participates in class activity GUESS what you’ll get, BONUS MARK! YAHOO WOW BONUS MARKS!

And ever since then every SINGLE ECONOMICS LECTURE, students have been asking for BONUS MARK BONUS MARK!
IT irritates the hell out of me. Like we come to class to get BONUS MARK!

Oh YES SHE HAS MOOD SWINGS!
There was once she came to class and said,
I didn’t have enough sleep yesterday so I am in a bad mood, you all better behave yourselves.
WOW exclamation mark…that’s so not professional.

And today, oh my today’s tutorial session was great, I felt like I was sitting in front of the tv watching some drama!
She wasn’t happy with a batch of students who came into class late and imposed a new rule…
TODAY I AM GONNA DO A NEW RULE, IF YOU COME TO CLASS 10 MINUTES AFTER I START MY LESSON, I AM GONNA DEDUCT YOUR MIDTERM MARKS!

*then the whole class goes hoohahhhhhh to show signs of protest*

Then Yusof, one of the foreign students said NO THIS IS UNFAIR!!

*class applauds to support*

Then suddenly the atomic bom meletup, she said YUSOF YOU BETTER KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT! YOU THINK YOU TALK A LOT YOU’RE SMART! YOU TALK TO MUCH!

Wah…damn drama wei…I couldn’t stand the drama, so I took my examination pad to close my mouth as I was giggling. I could see my other classmates doing the same.

The conclusion is, way to go my economics lecturer, you make me realize that I’m not that bad of a person after all. I LOVE YOU!

When unhapiness befalls me

I am a person who grumbles at a relative amount, or maybe a lot. But this time I am so gonna whine grumble protest and nag.
I just finished my mid-term exams.
And all three turned out crappy.
I am not saying I am not to blame,
I didn’t study as hard as I should have.
That’s number one complain.

My entire family is at holiday,
Having fun soaking by the beach,
And I am stuck here alone,
This is way way too unfair,
I blame it on MMU for having three sems.
That’s number two complain.

Oh yeah, I thought of another one,
My parents came down on Wednesday,
And brought me out for dinner,
And I was so happy cause I thought I would meet MUSHROOM ( my cat),
But they left him at home for my neighbour to look after,
cause they are going for vacation,
I need a vacation too,
This too much for me to bear,
I miss my cat so much,
That even the ugliest stray black spotty cat reminds me of him,
Nah, I’m being melodramatic.

I think that’s all the grumbles, complains, and dissatisfaction for today,
Oh no..i have two more,
I watched enchanted yesterday, and the ending was so perfect I felt disgusted.
And the nasi lemak I had for breakfast was all marshy; I hate it when my rice is marshy.

I feel so worn-out.
I really hate my time table this semester, I have three eight o’clock classes.
I have a huge basket of clothes to wash, I think ill send them to laundry.

BYE, I think I am gonna cook Tom Yam tonight to make me feel happier.

Of Fur and Stripes.

I thought of lion’s fur and zebra stripes, therefore the title above.
I went to A’ Famosa last week and I thought I’ll blog about that.
Not the famous Portuguese A’ Famosa fort , but the recreational A’ Famosa thingy.

My classmates and I, 5 of us went for a day trip to that place located in Alor Gajah, the journey from the apartment I’m staying takes about 30 minutes.

We left at ten, and decided to go to A Famosa Animal World Safari since I have always wanted to go to the zoo anyway.

The place has really developed since the last time I was there, now they have the animal world safari, the cowboy town, and the water world as main attraction, and other facilities like golf, resorts and so on.

So we got our tickets, RM50 including lunch.

As we get in, we were offered to take pictures with two not red Indian looking man but trying to disguise as red Indian man. One of them was so sweaty that I was disgusted.

As the recreation place is intended to make money as usual, by the time we left the place our pictures were already developed and sold at a ridiculous price of RM12. All of us bought it anyway for memory sake.

Next we explored the animals surrounding the place. There were emu’s who didn’t like the way their name was spelled so they surrounded the name board and pecked it, and pecked it over and over again.

The raccoons were eager to get food from the visitors. There were vendors selling all kinds of vegetables to feed the animals there.

The animals at the walk thru area varied from flamingos, rabbits, porcupines, tapirs, ponies, emus, camels, deer’s, in other words animals who aren’t so violent are chucked into the walk thru area.
Next we went for the bird show at 12 p.m. The show was pretty good, birds are really smart. There were birds who could ride bicycles, fly through hoops, sing birthday songs and all that. In the picture the guy is holding a hornbill.

After that we went for the safari with caged trucks. My, the road was so bumpy that it felled like a roller coaster ride.

There were crocodiles, lions, lioness, zebras who weren’t very friendly and greeted us by showing their asses, giraffes and many other kinds. I was disappointed as I wanted to see a hippopotamus.

Then we went for lunch, lunch was good as I was really hungry. Walking makes people hungry, tired and sweaty.

At 4.30 we went for the wild wild west show which got me excited at first as red Indians came riding in really fast with horses and gun shots, explosions and all that. After 5 minutes, the stupid antics of the cowboys and particular clown bore me and my friends down so we went off.

Oh yeah, while waiting for the show to begin we were making quite a scene as Kimi stupidly put the hand fan near my hair and a whole bunch of my hair got entangled in it. It was so painful and we spent an awful long time detangling it from the fan while I was making lots of noise due to the discomfort. The others, were laughing happily away..

Finally we went to Monkey Island, where we took a jetty there. There were as stated, monkeys on the island. Some were in glass exhibits. There was this particular gibbon, which scared the hell out of me. I was walking through looking at the monkeys, and this freaking naughty Gibbon was hiding at the side which I didn’t see, and when I walked through it jumped at me. I shouted like crazy. And Alex laughed and laughed, and said it was the highlight of the day. How mean!

Around the island there were this breed which I don’t know the name, very small in size were roaming freely all over the island. And the cutest part was there were a lot of Mummy monkeys carrying their tiny baby on the back. We even spotted one which was still kind off new born.

After that we got out of the Animal World Safari and went exploring. The guys wanted to play paint ball and since there were only 5 of us, we skipped the idea and went for Go- Kart. It wasn’t adrenaline rushing as I expecting. Boo! Kimi even said he was drifting, I didn’t feel the drift also.. Hehe…

That was the end of our trip, we reached home around six and it was really fun, but I couldn’t feel my legs due to long hours of walking! I can’t wait for our next trip out !

Class starts again.......

This semester I would be taking 3 subjects,

-COMPUTER APPLICATIONS I


-ENGLISH II


-PRINCIPLES OF ECONOMICS II

Hopefully ill enjoy them, since it's a short sem i think my schedule would be rather hectic. But i would be able to focus more on the subjects since it's three instead of five.

I am not really happy about the timetable given; I have 3 slots of eight o’clock classes.
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shouts out loud with happy face. -_-

I am so not a morning person.
People who are close to me especially my mum know that I’m especially grumpy and moody in the morning.
Hehe, thinking about those days when she had to wake me up for school, poor her, she had to tolerate my antics.

My many thanks to Annie and Michelle who brought back goodies for me from Sabah.
Michelle's mum bakes one of the most delicious moist chocolate cakes i have ever eaten.
Annie brought me assorted Raya cookies! They were so nice, thanks thanks thanks.
And yeah Michelle gave me a knitted thing that looked liked a scarf with my name knitted on it. It's so cool, i love personalised items.

Yeah, yesterday was awesome. Kimi wrote me a letter. It was so sweet. hehhee~ I read it over and over again...

It's always a great feeling when u realise that friends actually give a thought about u, like what they say, its the thought that counts!

phew!

I PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS!
* a sigh of relief*

i thought i would fail my accounts.
everynight before i sleep i would imagine myself feeling sorry for myself because i failed my accounts.
Not anymore.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i feel good nananananana

Thank god! amen amen amen

Next sem, here i come!

If only you could feel my joy!

A few friends and I are starting a prayer group every Friday at the apartment we stay. I’m so looking forward to it, and hopefully we will have more people to come and join us!

It isn’t easy keeping faith, but it’s certainly easy to backslide. Hopefully we get to encourage each other and always have our fire burning for the Lord.

Aloha~~

Hey. I am in Hawaii~~
It’s so great here, sunny and breezy…

Nah, I am kidding.

Today was a rather productive day for me..Because the last few days was so Bleh, I was wasting my time watching tv, playing the computer, sleeping and eating most of the time.

And today, I got up, drove to Giant with my mum.
Shopped for groceries.
Came home and baked cookies,
Chocholate chip cookies…yummy
And it turned out quite well, my uncle said they tasted like chipsmore.
That’s not really a compliment, Chipsmore tastes so commercialized.

After baking, I went for an half an hour walk with my Papa.
It was nice but I also made me realized how unfit I was.
Came home and my back ached,
For goodness sake I am a nearly 18 year’s old girl living in a 50 year old woman’s body

Private message: You are so not getting my cookies if I don’t get what I want.

In process.

Exams are in process.

It is funny how,
When I eat maggi mee,
It feels so unhealthy,
But then after putting vegetables in it,
It doesn’t feel unhealthy anymore.

I am afraid,
If one day my faith in Lord diclines.

Keep me close to you Lord.

Search me, O God, and know my heart,
test me and know my anxious thoughts,
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

My Humble Rice cooker.

As some of you know,
I have a slight interest in whipping up dishes.

I don’t have a home where I am studying,
I am currently renting an apartment with 8 other girls, where cooking is not allowed.
The only cooking appliance I have is a little rice cooker.
I also have,
- A bowl
- A plate
- A knife
- A pair of fork and spoons
- Chopsticks
- Soup and tea spoon
- A cup
- A thermos

That’s all I have. It’s so miserable when I have the urge to cook, and I have to cut garlic and onions on a plate and hear it go screech.

Still I have managed to cook,
Lots of maggi noodles
Spaghetti
Pasta
Porridge
Scrambled egg
Rice
Baked beans
Tom yam soup

I have plans to move into a house next year,
It’s cheaper but it can be quite a distance from my university,

I am still considering.

Moods are like colours, they vary

Why on earth is the weather so hot?
I can’t do anything except sleep
And eat, and drink cold water
I don’t bother taking baths because I will perspire and I would have to take my bath again.

Yesh that is a very lame reason. It’s an act of laziness. I think I was born to live in a cold place where I don’t have to bath as much.

Yesterday, my parents got angry with me.
So angry that I thought they were insane.
And that they didn’t understand me.
I stayed in my room, ignored them and continued thinking that they were insane.
I talked on the phone, finished my novel and slept.

Today I woke up.
Talked to God.
I asked Him,
Why are there things that I do or think,
That may be okay with me,
And right for me,
That seems so wrong with them.
Almost as if they are against me.

On the way back,
My dad talked to me,
Nicely,
He told me that,
He doesn’t want anything to happen to me,
Don’t get myself in trouble,
As the world is already so troubled
And if something happens to me,
I wouldn’t be the one facing the trouble,
But it would be them.
And he doesn’t enjoying scolding me,
But he cares and I upset him,
When I tend to make mistakes.

My mum accompanied me up to my unit,
Told me to take care,
And said that you have brains,
Use them,
And take care of yourself well.

She offered a hug,
But I said I was feeling hot,
Bye and take care.

I regretted not hugging her.
I wish I could tell them that,
I understand why you scolded me,
And correct me when im in the wrong,
As I know you care for me,
So much that you wouldn’t dare let me make mistakes.

I wish more parents were like mine.

why wont anybody bring me to the zoo?

ah, today is public holiday,
because it is the beginning of fast.

I want to go to the zoo, me want i dont care i want.
i want to play with my friends there.
cannot ah?
nobody bring me so sad
all your fault
and yours and yours and yours
hehehe

crap is today.
ah.
pardon the broken grammar cause i feel like using broken grammar.
so nice is to use broken grammar.
no need apply rules la, best giler.

what english lesson.
past present continuous tense.
future tense.
future past blah blah shit.

me is equals to not moody today but ah, looking back at many crap i did today is beginning to make me a lot a lot moody.

woke up
read book
sweep room
mop room
wipe table and shelf
wash and soak clothes
online
eat maggi cup noodles
drink milo
online
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. what is the freak my schedule today is really big piece of crap.

me gonna bath now.

big frown for all of u

:-(

hahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahhahahhahahahha
insanity strikes again.
woohoo
yeah
woohoo
yeah yeah

-_-
bye

Unpredicted

As known from my previous posts,
I have been slightly depressed.

So, it was just last morning,
I was telling my friend,
How depressing life was
, and how I felt like I wanted to die.

This was part of my conversation;
[9/8/2007 12:16:59 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: i want to rot and die
[9/8/2007 12:17:09 PM] haqimy says: -_-
[9/8/2007 12:17:33 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: u don’t know how I feel
[9/8/2007 12:17:36 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: i have been studying
[9/8/2007 12:17:40 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: and stressed out
[9/8/2007 12:17:46 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: its all in me
[9/8/2007 12:17:50 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: i feel like exploding
[9/8/2007 12:18:25 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says and my last exam
[9/8/2007 12:18:28 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: how suckish it was
[9/8/2007 12:18:31 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: its still IN ME
[9/8/2007 12:18:32 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: argh

I didn’t realize how unwholesome my talk was,
Until,
Someone did die.
Not die literally, but committed suicide.
Yes, in the apartment I am staying in.

I was in the common hall,
Watching lord of the rings,
Paying full attention to the lap top screen,
There was a lot of commotion going on behind me,
I still ignored and carried on watching,
Until my friend came and told me,

“Hey a girl just jumped down from the 18th floor, and died”.

My heart stopped for a second.
And I went like what on earth.
Jumping is for losers and sinners.
And it stroke me again,
About my unwholesome talk that afternoon.

My heart ache for the girl,
But my heart aches even more for those she left behind.

No matter how depressed I am,
Or how I feel like dying,
I will never resort to suicide,
Cause to me,
It doesn’t end anything,
But it creates even more problems.

And most importantly,
It is wrong in the name of the sovereign lord.

But,
Who am I to judge her?

The problems I am facing may be very minuscule compared to hers,
And the thought of dying is already there.
So I guess all of us have to be extremely strong in faith, will and mind.

The other side of me.

I greet you with a smile,
Hoping to have a blast together,
As I can’t recall the last time,
I went off light hearted.

And in the end,
Everything comes crashing under.
But hopes will be hopes,
As we can never predict,

It comes down to me and you,
Seated next to each other,
And there is no exchange of words.
I focus on what’s going on in my mind, as
I can no longer read yours.

I have so much to say.
But yet I keep mum.
Maybe it’s because I have said so much,
And words have become pointless in a way.

I am trying so hard,
To forget, to cast away, to erase,
My history,
You take what I say for granted,
And stab me in the heart,
over and over again.

Now I can only,
reminisce the good old times,
We spend together,
Laughing as hours slip through,
Unnoticeable.

Tell me the meaning of happiness,
As my heart feels none.
Tell me the way to let go,
As my heart feels a burden.
Tell me a way to understand,
As my limit has reached an end,

I am a weary,
Exhausted,
Drained,
Mortal.

Help me rejuvenate.

Of wonders and doubts

I am beginning to wonder a lot, that in this conspicuous world that I am living in, why us humans who are so alike in function and physic can sometimes be so hard to get along with.

I understand the fact that god created each one of us uniquely and differently in mind.
But thinking of it, by the end of the day after all the petty fights, silent treatments, bad feelings, or dislike, most of the things that create unpleasantness to the heart are very minor ones. If thought carefully it is even avoidable and unnecessary.

But then again, most humans feel and act unplanned and based on impulse, or at least I do.
So I guess what’s important to me is to correct what we left wrong.

And more importantly sometimes even if when we are not in the wrong, it means a big deal to put aside our pride because that I think that Is what that differentiates us from the others.

P.S# I havent been uploading much posts because somehow, blogspot takes a million years to load.

I hope miracles do happen.

Yes, because I need one.
I have an English presentation that carries 5% to my final exam in 4 hours.

And I lost my voice.

NO, even worst.

I still have my voice, but I sound like a freaking chocking toad.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

The disadvantages of public examinations, Poof!
I shall now tell everyone the disadvantages of talking too much now that I lost my voice.

That post was typed at 10.30a.m but my internet explorer couldnt open my blog so im only posting it up now.

Now that it’s all done, I feel so relief. It went okay I guess.
Somebody said that I now sound like a freaking grandmother.
ERHHHhhh!

At first 5 people were coming to my place to stay over.

And then there were 7

then 8

now out of a sudden there are 11 people coming.

I was planning to cook, erm, looks like not anymore.

I am so tired.

I do have stuff to blog about, but everytime i reach home and hit the bed,

I fall asleep within 10 seconds.

Thats how tired I am.

Thinking back of the days when it was so hard for me to fall asleep,

now its like kacang putih.

thats me, hiran, cat and dorita at mcdonalds dataran pahlawan which is 24 hours, a place where we get our late night snacks.

5 days, 5 days to go!

I found a cd with lots of games i grew up with, and i was so happy and excited to hear the familiar music of super mario, te tek dek te tek tek....( use your imagination)

But i quited in one minute with the feeling of being a complete loser.
The tiny mario who had not eaten his mushroom couldn't even jump across the drain.
I had three chances and mario ended up in the drain all three freaking times.
And it's so annoying how he always ends up in the drains and jumps up back.
and the music goes tek tek tek tek tek... Like wth, i get it you are dead mario,and you are not good at jumping across drains. But why on earth do i feel like a complete loser.

Sigh, other than that everthing else was good today.
I met up with my friends. I was so happy to see them, in school uniform! I miss putting on my school uniform and tying up my hair, looking all neat and formal.

Thinking back, i spent my 5 last years with these people, some of them i even knew back from primary school and kindergarten. It's nowonder why i miss them so much, they formed a big part of my life.

Peterpan's Ku katakan dengan indah is playing in my Winamp now, and it's making me want to cry. You know why, yeah you, only we know why. Cause i miss you, like so much...

Tuesday :-( , Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday :-)

Ignore the above paragraph. It's totally insignificant to everyone except to me.

I hate dial-up 56k connection, it's making me cry. I can't even upload pictures...
And i thought the weather in Malacca was hot, it's so totally hot here too.
Oh yeah, i forgot this is Malaysia.(smacks forehead!)
Ice cream time! tchao!

I am intoxicated on life

I’m back. And it feels so SO good. The same familiar surroundings, people I love and home cooked food I , thank god for my mum, it feels great to be back. Nothing comforts me more than the feeling of being at home.
And I haven’t been back for approximately a month, and guess what
I found out that there is a new café.
Body shop and elianto.
My second cat ( stray cat that we feed) gave birth to four drop dead so cute till cant tahan kittens. Got blue eyes somemore!
A month and so much changes?

How unfair, i want to witness changes too.

My friend who was on his way to Singapore stopped by Kluang, and he was thinking that Kluang was a some ulu place.
Yeah I told him we are still living on trees and from the bus stop we will stop by a jetty, from there we have to get to town by sampan, then go through another 3km jungle track before reaching my place.
And when he reached here, my was he was surprised.
Well, now u know...HmmpH!

I am so physically tired. Have been doing a lot of walking the past weekend.
These are some illustration of what I did,

cable car rides, yes i went up to genting

i watched some really cool jelly fish swim about.

and a whole lot of other animals.

Lack of posts

I haven't been updating lately due to exams and such.
And oh how I hate exams, I can’t even be the old last minute person I was before,
Every single exam, quiz, assignment, and test carries marks which will be later added on to the total mark of the finals.

So what's new?

1) I find my friends amusing because they go ghost hunting.
2) I am so not into ghost hunting.
3) The last thing I want to see are ghosts.

Oh dear ghosts, spirits, demons, anything not solid please continue to stay in your own realm and please please do not appear in front of me because I am not the type of person you would want to scare you know why? I tell you why,
-You know I am already afraid of ghosts so no matter how scary or drop dead gorgeous you guys are, the possibility is I am going to be afraid anyway, so why waste time scaring me?
-I don’t want to see you guys, there are millions out there wanting to get a glimpse of you all so appear in front of them and not me.
-If you guys get to scare people who think they are not afraid of you guys, isn’t that a bigger accomplishment than getting to scare a innocent human being like me whose already proclaiming that I am afraid even before meeting one of you guys.

I am assuming that spirits ghosts or what so are modern and they too, like reading blogs. Maybe, who knows a few of them is right behind me or you now reading too, I said maybe cause we can’t seem them right. Like they are translucent so I can’t see them, right. Yeah, right.

I have heard so many. Like so many kinds, varieties, versions of what you guys look like. But my own personal imagination of you guys is that you guys look just the same as me, it’s just that I can’t see you no more.

Talking about spirits, I have always told my mum that,
“Mummy, if you do die before me please don’t come back and haunt me no matter what, even if you really want to come back please don’t appear to me”
“Oh, Sarah, that’s what exactly I would do. And I am going to pull your blanket off while you’re sleeping if you don’t treat me well while I am alive”

Taking advantage of ones greatest fear is the EVILEST thing to do, but also the most fun to tease about. Well, that's life. :-)

It has been a long day and tiring day.

It has been a long and tiring day. I didn’t get enough of my beauty sleep yesterday as I turned in at only 3a.m after watching a movie. Today I had to rise up at 7 am so I was displaying my talent of sleeping with my eyes open for most of the lectures today.

So I just got home.
My house mate asked me if I was expecting any mail from anyone. No, I would love to receive snail mail from anyone, but I doubt that anyone knows my unit address.
It was an anonymous letter, and it wasn’t specifically addressed to anyone in our unit.
So we decided to open only to find this,



It says,

University apartment is apartment can making sex
So can you
If you think want sex
You can get it all desire sex
Satisfy at university apartment
When you going away to university apartment
In B.Beruang during the first visit to Malacca engine sex in university apartment is a desire master,
Your desire never satisfy till you sleep there making sex with university apartment.

My reaction:
I laughed because of the superb english displayed.

My comment:
Like what on earth, desperado if you want to have sex go find prostitutes and you can burn in hell with them.
Do not pollute our mail box with dirty cheap ideas you have in your mind.

There goes my long tiring day....

you make me wanna lala.

I must be living a meaningless life because I just don’t know what to blog about.
I don’t blog about extremely personal stuff so I blog about my daily life which is kinda dull.

My exam is next week and I am currently busy not studying, instead I am planning where to go for my holidays.

Any suggestions people?

I MUST STUDY.I MUST STUDY.I MUST STUDY.I MUST STUDY. I MUST STUDY.

bubble gum

I have been chewing bubble gum the whole of yesterday, blowed lots of bubbles, poked by my friends a dozen times, and now my jaw aches.

I can't even chew properly without feeling the ache.

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!

For amusement, I'm gonna post up a really fat baby me.

I was a fat baby, poor mummy had to carry 3 over kilogrames of me in her belly... that's why, appreciate mothers.

I am so random.... sighhhhhh

Pieces of me.

Hallelujah! Class has ended and I am back in my room, my spirits arises every time classes finish for the day.

So I got back, grabbed my camera and took snapshots of random stuff.

My diet includes anything instant.
Anything not instant would be outside food, and that doesn’t make it healthier because I don’t know what exactly they chuck inside.
So basically I am on a really HEALTHY DIET. Oh yeah, I just had curly fries, fried chicken, onion rings and root beer for dinner yesterday. And kfc the day before yesterday. And McDonalds they day before before yesterday.
I had instant porridge this morning for breakfast.

Mushroom flavoured (not my cat, the saprofit living thing), and although it looked nothing like porridge before water was added in, it tasted really like porridge after 3 minutes. And to my amazement, the mushrooms tasted real, and there was even onions and carrots inside.



So for my daily diet, it’s really either instant, outside food which doesn’t make it any much healthier, or fast.


My shelf is a multi-purpose 3 tier shelf. It's my dressing table, my book shelf and also my pantry. As you can see, that's where i place my mirror too.

That was half an hour ago. Check out this picture.

This is not an edited picture, but a piece of my broken mirror. I was taking pictures of my reflection in the mirror and realised that my mirror was dusty, so naturally i took a piece of tissue paper and cleaned it. It crashed through the back of my shelf and broke into a thousand pieces.

I was helping him clean himself, and he committed suicide. So there are a few conclusions I could think of (I like summing things up)
1) He doesn’t like being cleaned up
2) He was tickled by the piece of tissue paper I used until he couldn’t stand it anymore thus jumped off the shelf
3) He wants me to waste money by getting another mirror

And number 4) which is most likely the reason why he committed suicide
- He couldn’t stand seeing my reflection in the mirror

Temperature rising.

The weather is killing me. It’s like so panas giler. I can find people swimming in the pool at 1a.m.
Maybe it’s because I ate durian on Monday, or maybe its just because the weather is memang hot. My friends and I went to the night market after dinner and we went fruit shopping.
We bought durians, mangoes and mangosteens.
The best part about Asia is the abundance we have in local fruit which I really love!

We were supposed to consume the fruits we bought that night itself,
Until one of my friends Navsh got into some trouble with his leg while playing football and needed to get some painkillers.
The thing was, it was already 12 a.m. No nearby clinics was open anymore, so the genius Qimy brought all 5 of us to the general hospital. And surprisingly, the general hospital was crowded. After his first general check up in counter one, they gave him a wheel chair. It was like so funny, because it was nothing serious, he could walk just limping. He was so embarrassed to sit on the wheel chair and was moving about and making so much noise, my friends on the other hand was behaving like paparazzi’s taking snapshots of him in the wheel chair.
I was there laughing my heart out. Until a malay women said,
-Kenapa kaki kamu ni dik?
-Takde lah, terseliuh.
- Kalau terseliuh duduk diam diam. Kalau tak nanti saya panggil doctor.

SO bengang. Hahahahhaha….he got number 1336. His turn came at 2 a.m.
And I was exhausted by the time we were done, but my friends were hungry so we proceeded to a mamak stall nearby our apartment.
Finally we got back nearly to 3a.m.
The next day I had class at 8a.m.

My phone battery was low, so I charged it.
I went to lie down on my bed and the next thing I knew was my roommate waking me up in a panicky way.
It was 8.10a.m.
I grabbed my jacket, brushed my teeth, washed my face.
And literally ran to class.
Reached class, and looked as if I endured a storm on my way there.
Nah, hopefully I didn’t look that bad.

But I did feel bad. I am miss punctual k. yeah right.
Moral of the story, my mum is still my best alarm clock!
She would wake me up in intervals an hour before a certain destined time,
I would find it very very annoying and turn out really grumpy.
She always calls me an old grumpy lady during mornings.
I miss my mum being annoying in a good way, and my dad making me milo and serving me with buttered bread with jam, and sending me to school every morning.
Gosh, I better not rack up my past before I get all teary again.
It’s time to be independent.

I love my roommate, she's like my second mother.
This morning she had class at nine, she said
"sarah, its nine o'clock now, you're class is at eleven, you can sleep till ten then you get up okay!"
She is so sweet. Thank god for blessing me with such kind people!

I always look forward towards the weekends.

Sarah’s favourite day of the week is, Friday!
That’s because she knows next comes Saturday and Sunday. (ya I know I’m a genius)

I had a hectic but pleasurable weekend.
The G-8 gang celebrated Annie’s birthday at Pizza hut, we went bowling and lastly Daytona.
BOWLING WHICH I SUCKED BIG TIME AT! I ranked last out of seven people, but at least I made the bowling longkang squeaky clean. I suck at Daytona too, I got second last. Sobs…
BUT one of the key principles in Baltes’s life-span theory is that development can be improved significantly with training and practice! Gosh, I feel so lame quoting some guy in human development.

Talking about human development makes me want to puke.
My lecturer was teaching about the different methods of giving birth, which includes caesarean, natural birth, abnormal birth positions and yada yada.
That was nothing until she showed us life video clips of people giving birth through different methods.
It was so disgusting. Like really disgusting. Like extremely extremely disgusting, till my vocabulary was narrowed down to on yuck, eiyeh, gross, and lots of ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
I know it’s part of life and all that, but guess what is one of the options I’m considering now, it is to not give birth and opt for adoption.
It’s like killing 3 birds with a stone,
-I get to have a child.
-I get to help bring up a less fortunate baby.
-I won’t have to endure pain.
I need not worry about stuff like oh, my baby is adopted so I won’t feel the attachment and all that.
I got attached to my cat in like 2 days and treated him like my own baby.
But on the other hand, I do want to see what my baby would look like.
So maybe I’ll have my own and adopt too. ( I know I’m so indecisive)
Gosh, I think so far la.
Sarah you got more important things to ponder about!
It’s all the giving birth clips fault, and my teacher is going to show us clips of the whole process in the next lesson, including the contraction period and all that. What is she trying to do, scare the hell out of me and discourage me from giving birth I think.

Oh yeah, I cut ¾ of my locks yesterday.
I feel lighter although I do miss the long length of my hair. sobs...

Up up and away

I missed my cat a lot,

and i was constantly worrying about him.

What IF my mum doesn't feed him well?



My friend once said, IF is a very dangerous word.

and believe me, it's true.

Looks like i was worrying over nothing. This time i'm sure it's not his fur, cause i could see his fats jingling from side to side while he walked. Looks like his appetite improved after i left.

AH, cats will be cats.

Random.

I haven’t updated for quite some time.
And for some reason, words don’t come as easily as they used to.

I had classes up to six today.
And it was boring with a capital B.
No, it was boring with caps lock.
BORING!
I don’t see the relevance of studying principles of economics to my life.
Not for now, maybe I will later.

There was an exhibition of clubs and societies being held in the main hall today.
I joined two clubs.
History club. (Don’t even ask why)
And a club about astrology, I like stars and stuff.

In these past few days,
I got lost in my campus once.
Somebody mistook me for a female ghost once.
Saw an accident happen and later got to know that my friend was involved.
Played pool and made a fool out of myself.

I am so bored that I might just jump into the pool anytime, but i won't cause i am lame.
Or climb up to the eighth floor by stairs and jump down and repeat it a thousand times.

Up and about.

It has been nearly two weeks...
And I still don’t quite know my way around.
Well, that’s not surprising.

Just got back from the pool side,
What was so enjoyable?
Throw in...
A tablespoon of moonlight,
A toss of fresh breeze,
A pinch of star dust,
A glass of nonsensical conversation,
Bottles of giggles,
Stir them in,
And wallah,
A barrel filled with satisfaction.

Will it be a beginning to a beautiful friendship?
I think so, very much indeed.

Goodnight fellow fairies and elves,
I’m off to wonderland.

Happy papa's day!

Its my papa's day today.
The best way to describe my papa would be like this,
If i could write an essay about how great he is,
i would have too much to write.
If i could write an essay about how bad he is,
i would have too little to write.
That's about it.

And guess what people,
IM IN LOVE!!!

Nah, im kidding.
Class starts tomorrow.
And i have a feeling it's gonna be pretty insane.
The system is totally alien to me.
Everything is in short forms.
It's like living in military.
People, sarah needs to be spoon fed.
No i repeat sarah needs to be bottle fed.
Cause she's totally dependant on other people.

That's only a quarter true. Hopefully.
I'm growing, and that's part of life.
Life is fun, i get to experience lots of stuff.
And i have only experienced like, let's say, 2 out of 10 what life can offer,
So there's a whole lot more out there.
So i got to live longer.
I haven't tried sky diving, bungee jumping, swimming with the sharks, climbing the highest peak.
Gosh, those are extremes.
There are much more simpler things i haven't experience.
That only means i have a long way to go!

The early bird gets the worm.

Yeah.
So classic right that phrase.
And guess what?
It’s actually right.

I get up at FIVE fourty in morning, and it has been two days.
That’s fantabulous!
And I have been sleeping early too.
I’m quite amazed at how quick my body adjusts.
I have had the same sleeping habit for 6 months, sleeping at wee hours in the morning and getting up in the noon; I forgot what breakfast tasted like. Gosh, this sounds so clichéd.
Now finally I’m living a healthy life.
Hmmm..i wonder how long this will last.

The first day of orientation sucked like crazy.
I felt like I was chucked into Mars and was mingling among martians.
I realized that my personality has changed too.
On the first day I was so home sick and I was shedding tears like 24/7.
I was wondering where was the old me.
There stood in front of me a long line of humans and I didn’t bother to make friends at all.
If it was the old me, I would have started ice breaking right away.
I guess people do change.
But this is definitely not for the better, but maybe because there are so many factors involved and I’m virtually leaving home for the first time so I think this change doesn’t count.

I made friends with this great girl named Annie from Sabah and we hang out most of the time since we are from the same group and all that.
She is fun, nice, and happening.

pic: thats annie and me on our ground floor aparment!

PEOPLE FRIENDS PEERS FAMILY, SARAH MISSES YOU ALL DEEPLY!

Sealed with a kiss.

I’m leaving tomorrow.
And I’m leaving with a heavy heart.

So much has happened. I have lived seventeen years and nearly seven months.
My life revolves around my family and friends.
I can’t picture life without them.
I have grown to know them, get close to them and love them.
And now I have to leave and start all over again.

These past few days have been a roller coaster ride mentally.
I don’t know what to expect from now on.
It has been emotionally draining.
My heart aches when it comes to separation.
I weep myself to sleep and there’s nothing else I can do,
Expect to ask from god for strength and composure.

It was an easy decision,
At that time I didn’t have to think twice,
And now that it is time its strange because,
In my heart, I clearly know what I want,
But I don’t know if I made the right choice.
How ironic is that.

But I know what’s holding me back.
It’s me afraid of stepping out of my comfort zone.
It’s me afraid of leaving the ones I love.
It’s me afraid of not knowing what the future brings me.

I have so many wonderful friends who are so thoughtful and loving.
I have such magnificent parents who provide me with everything.
And with all these beautiful people around,
It makes it so much harder to leave.

Thank you everyone I know for making my life so worth living.
And above all this, I thank my ever-providing god.

I had a great day, filled with great food, entertainment, and memories, thanks guys for your company, kind words and gift. :-)

What do you do when everything around you is pitch dark?

What do you do when everything around you is pitch dark and eerily quiet?
Do you go to sleep?
Do you get scared and freeze up?
Do you start thinking of spooky stuff?

I light up a candle and embrace its warmth.

I start looking into my very own reflection in the puddle of hot burning wax.
And suddenly, very suddenly, I am gazing into my future.

I get so exhilarated, anxious and a whole other whirlpool of feelings plays about in my heart.
It captures peeks and glimpses of my up coming life here and there,
Some so clear and loud and some so blur and puzzling.

I must be dreaming. But I wasn’t the only one who seemed to capture the moment; my cat seemed to be as bewitched as me.

Abruptly, I came to my senses.
Why am I even looking into my future?
Wouldn’t my life be so predictable?
And what if I see horrible things, wouldn’t I get scared.
How am I going to live life if I know what my life brings me?
Life is supposed to be unplanned, spontaneous and full of suprises.

SO I blew off my future.

Everything seemed so surreal and pitch dark again.
I just blew off my future, the light of my life.

But I know somewhere else, there is a light shining even brighter than that candle and any other light source.
I may not see it, but I believe it.
And in that light, it holds my past, future and present.
And because I know, I live in content.

i LOVE my life

ME and mum are suffering from remote-control syndrome.

We love tv.

When there was one remote.

I hog the remote when my show is airing but i love changing channels during commercials.

MUM: stop changing channels, its giving me a headache.

SARAH: Advertisment lah

MUM: Give me the remote

SARAH: why, when start ill change back

MUM: Give me the remote now before i smack you

SARAH: Give me a good reason why.

MUM: I feel like holding it for a while.

SARAH: right.....................

Serious remote control syndrome. Needs serious treatment soon.

We use our remote so much and we drop it equally as much. So its kinda hard changing channels, the number 5 and 1 is totally not working.

So we got another remote, now there are TWO remotes.

SARAH: (changes channel during mum's show is on)

MUM: What do you think you're doing? (change back to her show)

SARAH: You're show is freaking boring lah. (change to another channel)

MUM: You dont try to be funny with me ah! (really angry tone)

SARAH: FINE! ( chucks another remote on my mum) Now you can use these two remotes all you want

MUM: I dont need two remotes, put the other one on the table!

SARAH: You love remotes so much right, have two of them. (belts out an evil laughter and walks away)

I love tom yam currently.

I made Tom yam noodles on Sunday.

I made Tom Yam fried rice on Monday.

I made Tom Yam noodles again on Tuesday.

Mum loves my Tom Yam noodles and had it on Tuesday too.

Dad had plain soup noodles.

HAHA

Small silly things that happens daily makes my life much more worth living,

and it explains that although im not living a high-flying life,

i am enjoying every moment of it,

and that's what matters.

Birthday boom

Dear blog,

Sorry for not writing to you for so long. You must have missed me, but I am sorry to say that I didn’t miss you as much as you would have. Mr. Phone line has been strucked by lightning for a week and passed away. But miracles happen, somebody from Telekom saved his life and now he is very alive again with his ‘tuuut’ heart beat.

May for me is birthday month. And somehow everyone I know born in the month of may are very close to me. And also they are all closely joined together in the calender, and that makes me super poor in the month of May.
22nd may- best friend who moved to Australia, crystle
23 may- mummy dearest
24 may- second brother
25 may-one daybreak
26 may- best friend Kiran.
Please, I don’t want anymore-close people to be born in the month of May.

American idol has ended. And Sparks won. Yeah, I like her better than Blake, although Blake’s beat boxing is cool, but when there’s too much of it, it becomes boring with a capital B. He should join a beat-boxing contest. But his rendition of you give love a bad name was pretty cool.

My mum is so cute.
Semi-finals result, Melinda Doolitle goes home.
Mum-“NOOOOOOOOOOOOO, what’s wrong with America, they are so racist, she is a heck of a singer but they don’t want to vote for her cause she’s black”
Sarah- Nolah, if Americans are racist they wouldn’t have voted for Ruben and Fantasia.
Mum- now no fun already watch American idol.
Sarah- Okay don’t watch then.

24th, America idol finals and mum’s birthday
Sarah- Lets go for dinner and celebrate your birthday?
Mummy- No need lah, I want to watch American idol.
Sarah- -_-
Mummy- I learnt a new word from American idol, beat boxing
Sarah- (thumbs up)

25th, results day
Mum- I wonder who will win, I am sure Jordin Sparks will, it was a clear cut.
Dad- No lah, I heard over the radio. The guy won.
Sarah and mum- What! Blake won. Yuck!
Mum- why you tell us, now no suspense already
Sarah- Yeah, what la you mouth so big.
Dad- What’s the guys name again?
Sarah- Blake Lewis
Dad- No that doesn’t sound like it, what’s the girls name then?
Sarah- Jordin sparks?
Dad- Yeah that one, I thought guy, I heard over the radio Jordan. Apa nama perempuan Jordin.
Sarah- -_-
Mum- what lah you tell us now no fun already.
Sarah- Double -_-
(Dad clearly isn’t a American idol follower)

No more idol fever, No more going crazy over Sanjaya, No more dispute among Simon and Ryan Seacrest. Now whats to watch on Wednesdays and Thursdays, hmmmmm...

I’ll keep my memories in a capsule and bury them deep in my heart.

Wow, I am amazed that I have gone through so much yesterday and I still survived. And for the first time in many years, my heart pumped so fast that I somehow can’t describe them in words. Oh maybe I can, it’s like when u flush, everything just goes down in a wee-second, that sort of sinking feeling.

And I paid the price for not being honest. I didn’t tell my parents the whole story about my accident. The car, which looked superficially okay, was not so okay inside. They were furious, and now I’m grounded from using the car for I don’t know how long, probably till I get my own car. But I seriously didn’t know the car was damaged inside. If I knew I would tell the whole story. Yeah, I know I was supposed to be honest in the first place. So I created my own problems. :-(

The barbeque farewell party turned out well. I was glad to see my ex-classmates again. A few of us, including me chose an alternative route, to not do form-6 and leave Kluang. I am going to miss being in the same class with all of you. It’s like leaving my comfort zone and starting all over again. I hope I’ll survive; i know all of us will, all we need is time. So good luck guys, and always stay in touch!

That's Pei Ling and me. She is leaving for Matriculation in Tangkak, all the best girlfriend!

That's a group of my ex-classmates. The cute girl on the right is Jeanette, she hosted the party, Thanks so much for your place and time! And Alice, on the far right is a Jpa scholar, she deserves it and i know she will turn out as someone great one day, i have a feeling many of my friends will..I am one lucky person to be in the same batch of multi-talented friends!

Having friends are a great part of life :-) , Love sarah

Crash, boom, bang.

Mr. Sun has been in a bad mood these few days, and he is venting his anger on us. It's so HOT HOT HOT!

Global warming is taking its effect. Countries, which were once hot, are now even hotter; temperatures are rising and decreasing to the extremes. What to do, what to do?

I drove for the first time by myself yesterday. Something was bound to happen right? But no, everything went smoothly until, yes until I reached my house. My parents were out, so I had to open to gate myself (no auto gate). While opening, I turned and realized that my car was moving. What on earth, no my eyes wasn’t playing tricks on me…. my car was moving forward slowly and silly me tried to stopped it with my physically weak body, well that was my instant reflex. It banged the dustbin, the side pavement and went right into the drain.

Just kidding. It stopped finally. So I quickly ran in and pressed on the brakes, shift my gear to Reverse, reversed, then shifted my gear to Park,and pulled the handbrake. Ran out to check on the car, ran back in and parked the car in my house porch. My neighbour and her two kids was there too watch the drama, I said "shhhh!" and she got it and she put her finger on her mouth. hahaha. I love my neighbour, she's not one of the KPC gang.

After all the anxiety I went through, I was sweating like crazy. I went to shower to cool down. My parents came back and I told them of course, but I skipped some parts here and there. My dad said we learn from experience, but my mum said by the time she learns from all the experiences, she and the car wont be in one piece anymore.

Mum said: I came back and checked on the car, it was okay. Oh rupa-rupanya yang tak okay kat dalam rumah.

Yeah , the car was okay, just a little scratch ( not noticeable unless you yourself know where), I was the injured one. While trying to stop the car with all the strength I had, the car pushed me against the side concrete aisle. And the result of that is , Tadaa!

Ihave a zebra looking leg, just with red and brown stripes. And it's really painful during showering time. But at least i got hurt and not the car, i rather it be that way. :-) Awesome experience.

MORAL OF THE STORY: When u stop your auto-car, dont forget to change to P and pull your handbrakes.

Dead or alive? Peek-a-boo!

My cat didn’t get grounded instead he got punished for coming back late.
I punished him by putting a pink hair band around his face and made him look as if he was going to do a Broadway performance.
Naturally, he hated it, so after i took the band off, it was pay back time for him.

Although Mushroom is really naughty at times, he is ehem, real smart too. Since he is getting older, I thought me being his mum and all that should teach him some surviving skills.I taught him to play dead just in case some other big dog or bear attacks him, and he is a pretty fast learner I must say

At first he wasn't really good at it, and he didnt understand what playing dead really means. SO i explained to him that when you play dead, you have to close your eyes....

Now that's a better one.

And soon enough, he mastered the skill and was able to play dead in several positions. Way to go mushroom!

Seven

Seven

What do you think of when it comes to the number seven?

The seven deadly sins?

The Chinese says that the spirit of the dead returns on the seventh day?

So is the number seven really that bad? To me it is,

Cause the period cycle lasts for seven days. I have seven really annoying, inconvenient, bloody days in my calendar every month,
Unless of course, if I get pregnant, or menopause. Which really isn’t the right thing to happen now.

And I need to take iron tablets for seven days. I don’t like cause its so yucky, but I have too cause I am anemic. ROAR!!!!

Ironically it’s a great thing at the same time. Without menstruating and the whole process that takes place in a women’s ovum, which we learn in biology, many beautiful things in life will not be able to happen. One of the most special is of course the process of producing life itself. Men will never be able to experience what women can. It’s because of the pain my mother went through that I came into this world.

Mother’s day is coming. The LEAST you can do is to appreciate her for giving you a WHOLE LIFE, once a year. And I still do hate periods.

I have to go look for my cat now; he has eloped with his black girlfriend. Mushroom, you are grounded!

No More Miss.Nice Girl.

Damn it,

I was craving so badly for dark bitter sweet chocolate(yi lians fault),
Begged my cousin to drive me to tesco to purchase it on Labour Day,
Had to be in the midst of so many people despite having fever and flu,
Finally survived the long queue, and stares from people due to an accident at the counter (my cousin dropped the price display thing and the computed became so lag)
And yippee, i purchased my Lindt bittersweet swiss chocolate!
Headed back to Kluang.

Reached Kluang.
"MUM where did u put my chocolate bar"
"I dont know, its in the fridge in Malacca i think"
"............................................."

Predictable can turn into unpredictable, so dont predict.

Some good things did happen to me over the week. For instance I got my first pay check. It wasn’t much though as I only worked for 7 seven days for this month, but i made history in the book of Sarah Teo Yan-Li again! And yes, i have spent it. Not on myself, on my mum. I bought her a pair of sandals today. And she picked it herself too. It feels good to spent money on someone who has been spending money on you your whole life.

Another good thing is I had a pay rise. Double Yippee! But i don’t think ill get any more pay rise cause I am stopping work at the end of this month for university. I found an apartment, walking distance to my university, new too; I’ll be staying on the eight floor! My favourite number, and its lucky too, apparently in Chinese. And its my favourite cause 8 falls on my birthday ( hint hint ). The security seems okay, and there are facilities provided like a swimming pool and also a gym where i can work out, i doubt i will though.

The bad thing is I wont be allowed to cook food, gosh, I do love cooking so so much! I don’t want to eat outside food everyday, all those extra MSG, added salt and oil is gonna cause me to have high blood pressure, high cholesterol and also added WEIGHT! Although i am no health freak, I don’t want added miseries to my life. It seems so easy to get all kinds of sickness today, every now and then, I hear people diagnosed with cancer, stroke or diabetes. This world is getting harder to live in.

As I am always craving for food, so on the way to Malacca I mentioned to my dad, Pa I want to eat Tangkak Beef Noodles! Me being a jakun and all that,have heard of the Oh so ever delicious taste of it and wanted to have a try myself. So we drove down to Tangkak town. And NO, i didnt get to taste any beef noodles. Tutup Kedai already. But i will never forget my trip there as i encountered two very weird men. While having my meal, there was this creepy Indian man sitting near me. He was sniffing glue from a plastic bag and was flying high. I freaked out and told my mum

Me:“ Ma, saya takut, takut, takut”

Mum:“ Buat apa takut, tak kacau awak pun, mengada-ngada”

Me:“Saya takut la, telefon polis”

Mum:“Dont be funny la you, eat up!”

Don’t you think my mum was being unfair to me, if only my mum was like this

Me:“ Ma, saya takut, takut, takut”

Mum:“Jangan takut, i will protect you!”

Me :“Saya takut la, telefon polis”

Mum : Idea yang bagus, cepat telefon tangkap sama dia !

This another weird guy was wearing retro sunglasses had a thick belt with all kinds of keris and knifes stuck to his belt and he was wearing black rubber boots. He looked as if he came out of the Pirates Of Caribbean set. There are people out there who are so weird and I thought i was weird, strangely I am very normal, and that’s a good thing. Amen!

How did I.U.Day go? please update me..

XOXO,sarah

I feel numb

I feel numb all over, inside out and outside in. All because of a little small pill. I’m down with running nose. I wonder if it’s the radioactive rays that caused it. I was just counting my blessings the other day of how lucky I am, not having been sick for a while and Whoosh, at the tap of someone’s magic wand I’m down with minor flu. And gosh, I really do wonder why people even consider taking drugs. A tiny winy drug prescribed by the doctor is enough to make me feel being shot out of planet earth, and yes, very sleepy indeed. I have gotten the much-needed rest, after suffering from many sleepless nights; I slept like a log yesterday. I turned in at around 9 pm and I got up at 1pm. You do the counting.

I am really bad at consuming pills. To swallow a pill, I need a whole glass of water. So if I have to swallow 4 pills that make 4 glasses of water. And I’ll have water right to the brim up my throat with 4 little pills having a splashy time inside my tummy.

Yesterday was pretty hectic for me.. I got to spend time with Jeanette and Pei Ling. It was nice to know that we were still the same young teenagers full of crazy ideas. We occupied the whole tea-house as we were the first customers, so we forgot the formalities and chatted like nobodies business. Then a couple came. Apparently they were offended with out loud-ways. According to Pei Ling, they dropped a hint by blasting their mp3 with latest Chinese hits, which I didn’t even realized.. And so we continued chatting, about really sweet stuff. I got to know the other side of Jean I never knew before, so it was really nice. Until the couple couldn’t take our obnoxious ways anymore they gave us a really loud “ SHhhHHHhhHHH!”

We got their hint, paid up and left the place. But come on, if they really wanted to spend quality time together, couldn’t they think of a more romantic place to juice things up? A public place, with a really lousy environment is so not a place for dates. If a guy were to bring me to a place like that for a date, I would label him as a guy with no taste and certainly not romantic at all. But still, I really don’t blame them. I don’t see any places of interest in Kluang.

No, I am certainly not the type of girl who enjoys urban building structures or high-rise buildings. I am a nature lover at heart, and no place would be an even better place for dating other than places where I can sit back and enjoy my company and also the natural surroundings. It’s just too bad that I can’t even find a decent looking park around town, no offence but as you know Malaysians are ever so good at vandalizing and destroying public property.


Picture: A beautiful park in London for people to enjoy and de-stress. We need parks like these here!

I can feel my forehead getting hot; I think it's Mr. Fevers turn. Damn, more pill swallowing coming up next. Goodbye and please pray that i'll recover soon.