My Humble Rice cooker.

As some of you know,
I have a slight interest in whipping up dishes.

I don’t have a home where I am studying,
I am currently renting an apartment with 8 other girls, where cooking is not allowed.
The only cooking appliance I have is a little rice cooker.
I also have,
- A bowl
- A plate
- A knife
- A pair of fork and spoons
- Chopsticks
- Soup and tea spoon
- A cup
- A thermos

That’s all I have. It’s so miserable when I have the urge to cook, and I have to cut garlic and onions on a plate and hear it go screech.

Still I have managed to cook,
Lots of maggi noodles
Spaghetti
Pasta
Porridge
Scrambled egg
Rice
Baked beans
Tom yam soup

I have plans to move into a house next year,
It’s cheaper but it can be quite a distance from my university,

I am still considering.

Moods are like colours, they vary

Why on earth is the weather so hot?
I can’t do anything except sleep
And eat, and drink cold water
I don’t bother taking baths because I will perspire and I would have to take my bath again.

Yesh that is a very lame reason. It’s an act of laziness. I think I was born to live in a cold place where I don’t have to bath as much.

Yesterday, my parents got angry with me.
So angry that I thought they were insane.
And that they didn’t understand me.
I stayed in my room, ignored them and continued thinking that they were insane.
I talked on the phone, finished my novel and slept.

Today I woke up.
Talked to God.
I asked Him,
Why are there things that I do or think,
That may be okay with me,
And right for me,
That seems so wrong with them.
Almost as if they are against me.

On the way back,
My dad talked to me,
Nicely,
He told me that,
He doesn’t want anything to happen to me,
Don’t get myself in trouble,
As the world is already so troubled
And if something happens to me,
I wouldn’t be the one facing the trouble,
But it would be them.
And he doesn’t enjoying scolding me,
But he cares and I upset him,
When I tend to make mistakes.

My mum accompanied me up to my unit,
Told me to take care,
And said that you have brains,
Use them,
And take care of yourself well.

She offered a hug,
But I said I was feeling hot,
Bye and take care.

I regretted not hugging her.
I wish I could tell them that,
I understand why you scolded me,
And correct me when im in the wrong,
As I know you care for me,
So much that you wouldn’t dare let me make mistakes.

I wish more parents were like mine.

why wont anybody bring me to the zoo?

ah, today is public holiday,
because it is the beginning of fast.

I want to go to the zoo, me want i dont care i want.
i want to play with my friends there.
cannot ah?
nobody bring me so sad
all your fault
and yours and yours and yours
hehehe

crap is today.
ah.
pardon the broken grammar cause i feel like using broken grammar.
so nice is to use broken grammar.
no need apply rules la, best giler.

what english lesson.
past present continuous tense.
future tense.
future past blah blah shit.

me is equals to not moody today but ah, looking back at many crap i did today is beginning to make me a lot a lot moody.

woke up
read book
sweep room
mop room
wipe table and shelf
wash and soak clothes
online
eat maggi cup noodles
drink milo
online
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. what is the freak my schedule today is really big piece of crap.

me gonna bath now.

big frown for all of u

:-(

hahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahhahahahahahhahhahahhahahahha
insanity strikes again.
woohoo
yeah
woohoo
yeah yeah

-_-
bye

Unpredicted

As known from my previous posts,
I have been slightly depressed.

So, it was just last morning,
I was telling my friend,
How depressing life was
, and how I felt like I wanted to die.

This was part of my conversation;
[9/8/2007 12:16:59 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: i want to rot and die
[9/8/2007 12:17:09 PM] haqimy says: -_-
[9/8/2007 12:17:33 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: u don’t know how I feel
[9/8/2007 12:17:36 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: i have been studying
[9/8/2007 12:17:40 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: and stressed out
[9/8/2007 12:17:46 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: its all in me
[9/8/2007 12:17:50 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: i feel like exploding
[9/8/2007 12:18:25 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says and my last exam
[9/8/2007 12:18:28 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: how suckish it was
[9/8/2007 12:18:31 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: its still IN ME
[9/8/2007 12:18:32 PM] Sarah Teo Yan-Li says: argh

I didn’t realize how unwholesome my talk was,
Until,
Someone did die.
Not die literally, but committed suicide.
Yes, in the apartment I am staying in.

I was in the common hall,
Watching lord of the rings,
Paying full attention to the lap top screen,
There was a lot of commotion going on behind me,
I still ignored and carried on watching,
Until my friend came and told me,

“Hey a girl just jumped down from the 18th floor, and died”.

My heart stopped for a second.
And I went like what on earth.
Jumping is for losers and sinners.
And it stroke me again,
About my unwholesome talk that afternoon.

My heart ache for the girl,
But my heart aches even more for those she left behind.

No matter how depressed I am,
Or how I feel like dying,
I will never resort to suicide,
Cause to me,
It doesn’t end anything,
But it creates even more problems.

And most importantly,
It is wrong in the name of the sovereign lord.

But,
Who am I to judge her?

The problems I am facing may be very minuscule compared to hers,
And the thought of dying is already there.
So I guess all of us have to be extremely strong in faith, will and mind.

The other side of me.

I greet you with a smile,
Hoping to have a blast together,
As I can’t recall the last time,
I went off light hearted.

And in the end,
Everything comes crashing under.
But hopes will be hopes,
As we can never predict,

It comes down to me and you,
Seated next to each other,
And there is no exchange of words.
I focus on what’s going on in my mind, as
I can no longer read yours.

I have so much to say.
But yet I keep mum.
Maybe it’s because I have said so much,
And words have become pointless in a way.

I am trying so hard,
To forget, to cast away, to erase,
My history,
You take what I say for granted,
And stab me in the heart,
over and over again.

Now I can only,
reminisce the good old times,
We spend together,
Laughing as hours slip through,
Unnoticeable.

Tell me the meaning of happiness,
As my heart feels none.
Tell me the way to let go,
As my heart feels a burden.
Tell me a way to understand,
As my limit has reached an end,

I am a weary,
Exhausted,
Drained,
Mortal.

Help me rejuvenate.

Of wonders and doubts

I am beginning to wonder a lot, that in this conspicuous world that I am living in, why us humans who are so alike in function and physic can sometimes be so hard to get along with.

I understand the fact that god created each one of us uniquely and differently in mind.
But thinking of it, by the end of the day after all the petty fights, silent treatments, bad feelings, or dislike, most of the things that create unpleasantness to the heart are very minor ones. If thought carefully it is even avoidable and unnecessary.

But then again, most humans feel and act unplanned and based on impulse, or at least I do.
So I guess what’s important to me is to correct what we left wrong.

And more importantly sometimes even if when we are not in the wrong, it means a big deal to put aside our pride because that I think that Is what that differentiates us from the others.

P.S# I havent been uploading much posts because somehow, blogspot takes a million years to load.