Stagnant

That’s what my life is right now.

Stagnant, like water not flowing…

Staying at home, all day, not doing anything productive can be really b.o.r.i.n.g.
Well, not that I am not doing anything productive , like I do help around, but doing house chores are really boring too. I wonder how my mum survived all these years doing everything on her own. I guess people born in the past generation are different, much stronger; I am really weak compared to her.

So today I am going to blog about one of my biggest fears, that is anything involve a slight hint of horror, spooky stuff, then I’ll get really scared.

I know as a Christian I am not suppose to fear as faith overcomes fear,
Timothy 1:7 (New International Version)
7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

Psalm 112:7-8 (New International Version)
7 He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.
8 His heart is secure, he will have no fear; in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.

But I am still so scared, and my friends in university are horror freaks, they love watching horror movies.

Sometimes I feel like I am really put into a situation where I am the lame one, where when we all go out for a movie, everyone wants to watch the latest horror movie, and I say I don’t watch horror movies, and I’ll say like go ahead, I’ll do something else.

Then everyone will say something like, no I won’t watch if you don’t watch.

Then I have no choice but to watch, and I’ll be stuck in the cinema closing my eyes and ears for the whole two hours which is really miserable.

I don’t blame them, as they don’t get my fear.

I think there are much more beautiful things in life where we should sought after instead of the feeling of being afraid, negative feelings.

These are some images of simple things in life which i regard as beautiful,

Smilling babies!

Bubbles somehow makes me happy!

Lush green, trees makes me happy. I have always had a vision driving down a road covered by a canopy of trees, breathing in the crisp fresh air...

Horses running freely in the wild, I have never seen it, but i picture it as a beautiful sight.

What do you picture as beautiful?

Till then, Sarah XOXO

Good Morning Sunshine.

I hardly get to say that.
I get up in the mid-noon, :-)
“Papa, why are u having pineapple juice right in the morning?”
“Morning? It is already twelve p.m”
“oh, I just got up, hehe”

Haven’t been doing much around, I have accomplished making cornflake cookies, reading every now and then, drinking hot chocolate everyday, and I did a little bit CNY shopping yesterday.

My neighbour's dog, Poppy visited us yesterday. She is such a darling, she pops by our house which is 3 blocks away from our former house every once in a while.

Being at home feels good, especially accompanied by the aroma of fresh baked cookies.

Happy belated new year!

Here I am again, at another beginning of a year. 2008! I am turning 19 this year; it feels like I’m almost reaching adulthood. Like my economics lecturer said, we are all developing physically and not mentally, maybe for one time she’s right. Because I feel like I’m still that old moody, selfish, grumpy old self.This year, I wasn’t looking forward so eagerly towards the New Year. First it felt really different, because MMU has three semesters, I was stucked right in between my finals while others were having fun. Second I lost something really precious to me, my cat. I am still hoping u know, for him to come back.

I am back in Kluang, for the semester break. But everyone just started their classes; if anyone of you are free and want to go yum cha give me a beep k! I look forward to meeting you guys. I guess I will spend most of my holiday at home, lazing around, helping mum with CNY baking.
Being at home without Mushroom sucks… I know it may be annoying to those reading how I go over and over again mourning the lost of my cat, but I don’t care an inch and I feel like I’ll mourn his lost over and over again until finally he comes back. It’s so sad, seeing his cat food still around, his fur brush, his towel and the chair he always sleeps on. My dad said that they wait everyday for him to come back but he never appears. At least if I found Mushroom dead also better right, then leaving me to figure out where is he, how is he. Huhuhuhuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu……….i so sad………

Anyways I went to Langkawi last week for my semester break. I declare myself as a professional bus sitter because I sat a total of nearly 20 hours this month. HAHAHA! We went to Alor Setar, from Alor Setar we took a cab to Kuala Kedah Jetty and a ferry to Langkawi. The bus was frezzing cold, the cab was allright, but the ferry made me sea sick, especially on the way back, it was wobbling like crazy as the waves were kind off rough. Luckily I didn’t puke.

The reliable map that brought us around Langkawi. I am a bad bad unreliable map reader.

On the ferry sun deck on the way to Pulau Payar, bad hair day picture haha, the wind was so strong!

That's Pulau Payar, where there are a lot of fishes and i went snorkelling there for a bit before it became too hot..

View from cable car top you can actually see the whole island, well nearly the whole island.

i miss him, a lot

Mushroom is missing.

It’s a horrible feeling, losing someone u love and care about so much.
Especially when u miss him so much, and you look forward to see him everytime,
And then news come to you unexpectedly.

I can still remember very distinctly when my parents came up for Christmas,
I was so happy cause I could meet up with Mushroom, I haven’t seen him for ages.
And my mum told me that Mushroom was missing.It took a few seconds for me to process what she said.

When, how come, why?

She said it happened since last Monday; Mushroom didn’t come home so they looked for him everywhere but they couldn’t find him. They went around the whole neighborhood, my dad even went to the extent to look for him at the Gurkha graveyard right behind the neighbourhood, my neighbour joined in the search too.

My mum didn’t want to tell me earlier as she knew I wouldn’t take it easily.
I broke down and thought of all the consequences Mushroom could face,

Someone might have taken him.

He might have wondered off and couldn’t find his way back which is least likely as he hasn’t failed to come back everyday, we let him play outside on his own.

If someone did take him, they aught to be ashamed of themselves cause Mushroom was wearing a collar, obviously someone owned him.

How can you take something that doesn’t belong to you?

I took care of Mushroom since he was a kitten and I’m really attached to him. He is a really well behaved cat, he is my first pet and I really love him, I watched him grow, from a kitten to an adult cat.

Even after so long, I’m still taken aback by the news and I am still praying that one day he would still come home to me. Everyone is still waiting for him to come back. I just can’t accept the fact that he is gone, I really really miss him. Even while typing this entry its so emotional for me. I feel a pang of sadness in my heart whenever I think of him. I just hope he is okay and he will always be my baby!

christmas, christmas time is here

Things are starting to get really Christmassy.. Not that, snowflakes are falling or what but my spirits has risen, and it means that time of the year has come.
It all started with watching Alvin and the Chipmunks, where they sang a Christmas song that goes like Christmas, Christmas time is near,
Time for joy and time for cheer,
And then something, hula-hoop. (Cuteness overdose)

MMU Care Club came up with A Christmas Thingy, a musical the invisible cloak,
And it was really good!

Then I went Christmas shopping at Dataran Pahlawan,
And the Mall was all geared up for Christmas,
The decorations was so pretty..

Yesterday, I watched the National Treasure, it was okay, I was impressed with Nicholas Cage as he was so smart with his knowledge of history and facts, and so is his mum and dad, and his friend in the movie Riley who was a genius in breaking codes that they managed to sneak in Birmingham Palace. After solving clues and breaking secret codes, they found the Kingdom of Gold, it was all too good to be true.

After the movie, I went to Hiran’s place to watch another movie, A Walk to Remember, an old movie starring Mandy Moore and Shane West. It’s a really really sweet touching movie, that I teared here and there. Shane West played a role, Landen who is really sweet with his bad guy turned good for a girl thingy.

Despite all the decorations, presents and food, Christmas is much much more than that, it's a very special gift for everyone.

So goodbye and have a blessed Christmas everyone!

eighteen

Oh well, I am finally eighteen. Turned eighteen on 8th of December, so happy belated birthday to me!
Only now i have the time to blog about my birthday.

My friends had a surprise party planned for me.
There were many spoilers though, before my party a few people had came up to me and told me that they couldn’t attend tonight and ill go like huh, what’s going on tonight. Then they will realize I didn’t know and come up with some lame thing like oh we are going to mamak tonight, like so obvious right...

The actual plan was supposed to be me, Kimi, Faiz, and Hiran go out to have dinner to celebrate my birthday at this café with a live band.
I was kinda disappointed at first when I asked my close classmates, Nat and Amanda if they wanted to join, they told me they were going for Karaoke instead.

When I got there, the live band started singing happy birthday to me and literally EVERYONE I knew was there, even friends whom I didn’t expect to come was there singing happy birthday to me! It was kind of awkward being the centre of attention as everyone was staring.

Thanks to Kimi for planning the surprise party, and of course Nat, Darren, and Darrel for booking the place, and to everyone for coming. Its just a great feeling to celebrate your birthday with the thought where people actually care about you, and made time to come! I really appreciate that..

Ivan, Justin, Caryn and some other people got me helium balloons. They heard from someone that i liked making a wish and letting them go, so they got me that. They said it wasnt easy looking for helium baloons in the middle of the night. And Catherine even got me a hot pink G-String lingerie..hahhahha

I felt really bad as I couldn’t play a good host to everyone as there were too many people and the live band was really loud.
So a few friends asked me this question,
How does it feel being eighteen and legal?

Seriously, I feel the same. I can’t feel being eighteen just after I turned eighteen.
But I can tell you what being seventeen feels like,
It’s a mixture of feelings for me,
First was having to leave home for university, that was a major step in my life…but it made me more independent. Being seventeen is a transition between life where its time to leave teenage hood and to be prepared for young adulthood! Seventeen feels great, and i hope being eighteen would be a blast too!

Okay, pictures...

My birthday cakes! Really good...

Friends..... who made it happen

Thanks for the presents everyone! i love each and everyone of them! I didnt get to take pictures with everyone, as I didnt have my digital camera with me. :-(

woooohoooo, i am eighteen. Congratulations Sarah for making it this far, way to go!

Cucumbers

I made hot dog sandwiches and chicken soup for dinner today so i have a lot of cucumber leftovers. So i am munching them away...

Going for Economics lessons are amusing.
And there are my latest amusement.
Not the lesson really, but the lecturer.
She is a pain in everyone’s ***!

First day in class, I could tell that my economics lesson would never be the same again.

First was her inferiority complex problem, as in she asked us not to compare her with our previous lecturer.
Then there was the bonus mark thing.
Every time a student participates in class activity GUESS what you’ll get, BONUS MARK! YAHOO WOW BONUS MARKS!

And ever since then every SINGLE ECONOMICS LECTURE, students have been asking for BONUS MARK BONUS MARK!
IT irritates the hell out of me. Like we come to class to get BONUS MARK!

Oh YES SHE HAS MOOD SWINGS!
There was once she came to class and said,
I didn’t have enough sleep yesterday so I am in a bad mood, you all better behave yourselves.
WOW exclamation mark…that’s so not professional.

And today, oh my today’s tutorial session was great, I felt like I was sitting in front of the tv watching some drama!
She wasn’t happy with a batch of students who came into class late and imposed a new rule…
TODAY I AM GONNA DO A NEW RULE, IF YOU COME TO CLASS 10 MINUTES AFTER I START MY LESSON, I AM GONNA DEDUCT YOUR MIDTERM MARKS!

*then the whole class goes hoohahhhhhh to show signs of protest*

Then Yusof, one of the foreign students said NO THIS IS UNFAIR!!

*class applauds to support*

Then suddenly the atomic bom meletup, she said YUSOF YOU BETTER KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT! YOU THINK YOU TALK A LOT YOU’RE SMART! YOU TALK TO MUCH!

Wah…damn drama wei…I couldn’t stand the drama, so I took my examination pad to close my mouth as I was giggling. I could see my other classmates doing the same.

The conclusion is, way to go my economics lecturer, you make me realize that I’m not that bad of a person after all. I LOVE YOU!